I dont know how I will keep on going on. Everybody terrifies me with this financial crisis, making the future look as bleak as possible.

Personally, I am on breaking point with my nerves and the decisions I have to make.Do I love him? Passionately? no. I just want to spend our lives happily together. but even that now seems so hard.

I have my psychiatrist appoitnment tomorrow where i will explain to him my view of things.if I can not find a viable solution, I dont know how much more I can handle!