I think I am clinically depressed.I dont enjoy anything anymore and there is nothing I like. There are only things I dislike. And I dislike them a lot. Someody would say that there is nothing in my life I should be unhappy about. I am healthy with my family being healthy, I have a good job, I have money, I have a boyfriend, and friends that want to hang out with me. So what is wrong with me? why do I deeply dislike everything??

I dont know how I will keep on going on. Everybody terrifies me with this financial crisis, making the future look as bleak as possible.

Personally, I am on breaking point with my nerves and the decisions I have to make.Do I love him? Passionately? no. I just want to spend our lives happily together. but even that now seems so hard.

I have my psychiatrist appoitnment tomorrow where i will explain to him my view of things.if I can not find a viable solution, I dont know how much more I can handle!