I have been thinking of breaking up with my boyfriend. I know it seems irrational and out of the blue, but I am not having fun anymore in my relationship. There is so much out there and all I am doing is living a boring, miserly life.

He is not to blame ofcourse,I am. But he is a tendency that makes it worse. He is not trying to pull me out of it, rather likes it, thinks this is the way life is and actually tries to maintain the situation.

I dont know yet what to do, this nagging thought and the insecurity of not being sure of how you feel or think about a subject or a person makes me feel rotten.

On a happy note though, I decorated for Christmas, and the house and the tree look gorgeous.

I just wish I was feeling gorgeous as well.

I have to remember I have a dermatologist appointment on Tuesday! I should def not forget that.

I am going back to my reading now. Currently I am reading the god delusion. I am at chapter 5 so I dont have much to tell you.

I am also reading the road less travelled number 3 in the series, I dont know exactly the title in English. I will let you know what I think when I finish with that one too.

love